My worship song of the season for last month.

Wouldn’t it be nice to see a hospital caregroup by end of the year? Wouldn’t it be nice if the hospital car park just be filled like the auditorium.. 

I said something a while back about dreaming big for God. As much as I may seem excited, with so many resolutions, I have my own mixed feelings for this year. Doubts, skepticism, fears, 1001 questions on ‘Where do I go from here?’, ‘What about this item which I want?’ and ‘How are things going to work out at the end of the day?’. Yes, there will be problems, heartaches, disappointments, falls (whatever, you name it). But, despite it all, I want to believe that all big things that come to past has to begin somewhere. And hope never fails.

Mental
- learn Mandarin (and maybe some Hokkien), otherwise I will probably die of being unable to communicate with Chinese patients and Hope JB people
- take up a musical instrument (either guitar or keyboard, or both), to faithfully learn them if given the opportunity, and have enough money to buy either or both
- continue to try my best to be an effective chairperson in caregroup when called upon, and improve – more discerning to leading of the Holy Spirit
- worship leader for only 2 occasions last year in caregroup, hope for more opportunities to improve self
- intercession ministry either on campus or church (for God to rock the campus and hospital)
- maximisation through multitasking / increased efficiency (coz in the midst of my perfectionism and procrastination, wasted a lot of time last year, which could have been used to study and do other things)
- raise the bar of academic excellence – HD in exams (If He is willing. I know I should be giving thanks in all circumstances. Although I may not always get what I want, God has been faithful in blessing me with what I need. However, I’ve been waiting a very long time since Year 1 semester 1 for this though. It will be tough, but we’ll see how, hopefully by His grace and with the previous point, this will come to pass.)
- consider plans whether to do BMedSci (honours) degree, roughly where to do electives, and a rough idea of what next after graduation

Physical
- weight loss – hope to reach 85 kg by end of the year (take up a sport when free, eg badminton, jogging etc)
- reduce fast food (ie McD, KFC) intake to maximum of twice a month

Spiritual
Last year: learnt a lot (I think the most so far) through sermons, WFL and leadership training, but reading WOG and QT still have room for improvements.
- finish the 5 Connect journals bought last year
- try to finish reading book on Intercessory prayer given by ex-shepherd, will be a challenge bcoz fun, storytelling-like, practical style of writing (with spoon-fed dot points in between) appeals more to me. Its 1st chapter gave an impression of quite some theology involved
- finish the remaining 4 books given to me as a gift for growth
- with 5 near misses last year, role in at least 1 salvation this year. I don’t mind more since God is able to do immeasurably more than we ask for (Ephesians 3:20)
- church membership (step of faith), not yet member, harder to be member of Hope JB than PJ
- shepherd to at least 1 sheep
- grow more in prayer – try my best to commit to prayer meetings and come up with items to pray for
- ministry house

Social
- peace of mind, able to adapt to atmosphere in Hope JB (advice from UL was try not to compare, coz 1 CL who went to UK for studies got discouraged by the cold reception from Hope London, different culture in Europe)
- hope to maintain an enthusiastic attitude which has encouraged CG people last year
- wisdom and seasoned speech – failed attempts last year to build long term rapport and sustain conversations with DoTA freaks, as well as coming under fire for being unsure how to respond to people who are harbouring discontent with the country’s present situation
- salt and light to family members
- continue taking initiative to approach people and build them up through conversations, quality time and actions that reflect sincerity
- lameness – it was said that JB people who have a very ’Cina’ mindset may not understand or appreciate lame jokes. Hopefully, last year’s outburst of creativity in PJ will continue to bring inspiration this year and change this mentality :p

Character
Things to bring under control:
- emotional instability (brought about by circumstances and feelings of insecurity, wallowing in self pity, fear of stepping into unknown territory / changes in plans etc)
- jealousy (the need to learn to be happy for others), prejudice
- over-obsessiveness and possessiveness in the name of perfectionism when undertaking projects / activities / assignments, that it becomes a 1-man show
- laziness and procrastination
- need to learn to say ‘no’, and be able to accept ‘no’ as an answer
Things to carry forward from last year:
- pride control (2007 was Year of Building Humility)
- anger management (December was a month of building patience)

Theme verse: Hebrews 12:1

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 

Theme song: 

We’ll Be Faithful by: YFC

Forgetting what lies behind
Setting our hearts on the prize
Always keeping our eyes on our Lord Jesus

We’re running the race to win
All the way to the end
Laying down every sin that would seek to hinder us

Chorus
And we’ll be faithful
To our calling
For You are able to keep us from falling
For in Your promise
We will trust
We’ll be faithful to finish
The work You began in us

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
chris was joking da other day, says how he finds it funny on u being my boss in CF..

Liwen says:
what’s funny?

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
he was imagining liwen being ‘weak’ giving command 2 gary

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
oh crap, he’s so gonna  belasah me man 4 dis

Liwen says:
o_o so that’s what’s going on in that head of his when he’s not talking!

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
LOL
 
Liwen says:
ahahahhahahahaha

Liwen says:
nvm nvm

Liwen says:
i’ll get him first!

Liwen says:
hahahahah

Liwen says:
go on go on

Liwen says:
this is interesting!

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
when i emo he scolded me saying its not manly 2 b emo

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
i was like “what??”

Liwen says:
hahahahahha

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
then he said u wanna b like liwen izit, she’s like da emo queen

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
LOL

Liwen says:
*JAW DROPS*

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
ar? y?

Liwen says:
see? see? he diam diam… all these things going through that head of his… pfft

Liwen says:
anyway, go on =P

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
itu saja..; sekian terima kasih

Liwen says:
i should learn to open that head a bit. dunno why with him my own head goes quite blank

Liwen says:
ceh.. so short

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
y? u want more drama sandiwara izit?

Liwen says:
what drama?

Liwen says:
-_-

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
aiya wat else u wanna hear

Liwen says:
dunno

Liwen says:
you tell me

Liwen says:
=P

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
i find our conversation earlier so funny im putting it on my blog

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
hehe

Liwen says:
o_o

Liwen says:
which one?!?!

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
go and c lar

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
guarantee chris is gonna bash me up dy

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
LOL

Liwen says:
HAHAHAHHAA

Liwen says:
so means i can get him for it, too???

Liwen says:
can i? can i?

Liwen says:
he bash you up, i help you get him back ah

Liwen says:
=P

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
we sabo him 2gether lar

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
b4 he balik kuching.. lolz

Liwen says:
how? -_-

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
u decide lar.. u da victim how u wanna get back..

Liwen says:
corner him and make him spill all those things in his head!

Liwen says:
hahahahhaha!

Liwen says:
okay, your turn

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
oh decide dy

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
spill wat

Liwen says:
dunno

Liwen says:
he diam diam

Liwen says:
“If Li Wen can post up a conversation on MSN, i oso can  “?

Liwen says:
jyorrrr

Liwen says:
i tell you, he stay so near you.. i think you’ll kena first before we can sabo him

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
then u drive down ur kancil here lar

Liwen says:
oh my gosh..

Liwen says:
maybe i’ll kena also…

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
wat

Liwen says:
ceh

Liwen says:
need me to save you ke or what?

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
no lar.. need ur car 2 cabut only.. lolz

Liwen says:
-_-;

Gary is feeling EMO as usual.. says:
u will kena wat

Liwen says:
yeah huh…

Liwen says:
so i dont even want to go there!!

Liwen says:
you take taxi! or just dont open your door!

Liwen says:
stay indoors stay indoors!

Liwen says:
ohmygosh

Liwen says:
so longgggggg

Liwen says:
crazy lah you!!

Liwen says:
take that away!

Liwen says:
take away!